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| This is it. I'm letting go. Each time I want to share my feelings, I feel vulnerable and build up my walls. My heart is no longer willing. So, I'll do what I've done and say goodbye. This hurts, but it's my call. | | |
| There's times where I want something more
Someone more like me
There's times when this dress rehearsal
Seems incomplete
But, you see the colors in me like no one else
And behind your dark glasses you're...
You're something else You know some real bad tricks
And you need some discipline
But, lately you've been trying real hard
And giving me your best
And, you give me the most gorgeous sleep
That I've ever had
And when it's really bad
I guess it's not that bad | | |
| ...and there is still a hole in my heart left by your leaving us. But we all told each other you really never left, that you would always be watching, and that we could talk to you whenever we wanted. Trust and honesty were gold, your word was bond. Keep watching, and I'll keep looking.  09.06.81 - 06.27.00 | | |
| but where the fuck is Cream Ridge, NJ? and why does that sound gross? not raunchy. just gross. | | |
| A good friend recently helped me rediscover the importance of joy in life, and that without it, we would simply be machines. How does one find joy? The world is not filled with cute French little girls blowing bubbles, and you cannot possibly have an endless supply of jokes and imitations. But, I do enjoy laughter, even if just reserved in my mind. Lately, I've found laughter in schadenfreude. The misfortune of choice: stupidity. It is amazing how much amusement could be had if you just sit back and let people talk and act their way into a hole of foolishness. The past few days have provided quite well, and from many many sources, of all ages and media. Wonderful. I am training myself to be more stonefaced. I've always been quite expressive, even without realizing it. Once a stupid comment comes within earshot, I can't help but smirk. This will defeat my amusement, and might cause them to have a moment of wisdom and stop talking. No! ::sigh:: A girl's gotta laugh. Plus, it's fun to share the stupidity with M.  | | |
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